BXBX NOVEL Chapter 95 - Boundary
Chapter 95: Chapter 95 Boundary
I suddenly remembered what Chu Yuan and Yang Wei said about me. I’m not stupid, I’m just used to pretending to be stupid. Actually, isn’t this what everyone does? The person that everyone lied to the most is the person themselves.
Promise my ass! I promised myself to make Mo Fei happy as a friend. But can I do it? What a joke, Chu Nan, you are a big idiot. An idiot that overestimates himself!
Brother Wei is right, Mo Fei and I are not from the same world.
“I won’t call it wrong again,” my tone was calm, and even I was surprised by it, “Ms. Mo.”
Yes, from now on, you will just be my boss, since you refuse to take the initiative to draw a line between us, then I will carve the boundary to restrain myself.
Mo Fei’s hands froze, she looked up at me in shock, “You… what did you just call me?”
“Ms. Mo.”
Mo Fei smiled, but the corner of her mouth seemed to twitch spasmodically, “Chu Nan, please stop joking with me, okay?”
I smiled too, feeling an indescribable relaxation in my heart, as if finally putting down a heavy burden. Sure enough, the troubles were all caused by myself, “do I look like I’m joking?”
“Why! Are you angry? Because my attitude was too bad?” Mo Fei’s face gradually lost its blood color, the speed of her speech was increased, and her voice was trembling slightly.
“No, you are the boss, I am an employee, you don’t have to smile at me, and I am in no position to ask you to look at me differently either.” My heart almost softened. I couldn’t help but say to myself, ‘you idolt, you are in no position to soften your heart. Do you think she is begging you?’
Mo Fei shook her head fiercely, suddenly stood up, “You are angry!”
I denied: “No.”
“You are angry!” Mo Fei’s eyes became watery, her teeth bit her lower lip, and she looked like she was about to cry.
I am a spineless man, so I avoided her sad eyes, “I don’t understand why you say that, but I’m really not angry.”
“Chu Nan!” Mo Fei screamed sharply, scared me into jumping back one big step. Then I saw her take three steps and rushed over to me. Is she going to hit me? What’s the purpose of it? What’s the purpose of pretending to be sympathetic and continuing to make me feel infatuated with you?
I subconsciously wanted to stand up to protect myself. Unexpectedly, Mo Fei suddenly ran into my arms when she was still two steps before me.
The weight of her body pressed onto my lap heavily as her arms wrapped around it tightly, I was so shocked that before I was able to react, Mo Fei, who was kneeling on the ground, already raised her pink face that was covered with tears, “I’m sorry, please don’t get angry, okay? I was wrong, It was my fault, I shouldn’t throw a tantrum at you, but… but I’m really not happy, I didn’t do it on purpose… I… *Sob*…”
When it got to the end, Mo Fei was already choked with sobs, and she buried her face between my legs and wept.
I was dumbfounded, what the hell is this? What is she crying for?
I was then dumbfounded again. For fuck sake, even if you want to cry if you cry, why do you have to cry in between my legs?! I kept hypnotizing little Chu Nan, fearing it would be awakened by Mo Fei, then it would be extremely embarrassing.
“Why are you so mean… Why are all men so mean… what did I do wrong… *sob*… Why do I always make people angry… *sob*…”
I seem to understand Mo Fei’s words, especially the sentence “Why are all men so mean”, which pierced through my skin and stabbed my narrow-minded heart, and the collision of self-esteem and selfishness made me feel ashamed. I hesitated but eventually pressed my hand gently against Mo Fei’s trembling shoulder.
Actually, I knew very well that most of my anger came from the fact that Mo Fei disappeared half a day and a night after she went out for dinner with a man. I knew that I was jealous. Although I knew it clearly, I was still jealous.
Jealousy is like a fly on a tumor of the heart, which constantly infects the trauma and eventually makes the heart fester. I cursed myself for being such a petty-minded person and insisted on thinking about the slightly exaggerated friendship that Mo Fei had shown in the direction expected by my subconscious desires, being delusional, yet failing to recognize it. Because of a little suspicion and jealousy, I wanted to distance myself from her. To put it bluntly, I wanted to give his own “impudence” an out.
Mo Fei never liked me, so how could it be a betrayal? My anger was unreasonable, just a petty-minded man being jealous.
“Mo… Feifei, what’s the matter? Did someone bully you?”
Mo Fei’s body shuddered, her cry stopped, but she didn’t look up. Only after a while, did she say with sobs, “Yes…” And as if it evoked the repressed pain, she cried even more intense.
With this “yes” alone, it made me feel like I have fallen into the abyss. She was bullied? By who? The man who had dinner with her last night? Who was that man? How did he bully Mo Fei? There were a lot of questions in my head shooting into my fragile heart like bullets. I couldn’t help but say, “Who? I’ll help you to beat him up!”
Some people say that anger and resentment are the emotions of the weak or the loser. This is true. If that man is Mo Fei’s man, Chu Nan, on what grounds do you think that you can beat him up? After all, that is just a private matter between them. I felt angry, and I had the heart to do it, but my body didn’t have any strength.
“No! Please don’t.” Mo Fei lifted her face in horror, and my heart fell to the bottom of the valley, shattered and smashed. “That… is my personal business, Chu Nan, thank you, but it is fine.”
“Really, personal business, hehe…” God knows how I was able to laugh it out, I really wanted to find a mirror and took a good look at my present expression. There were no longer any feelings in my heart. It was empty. I believed that, at this moment, the smile on my face is definitely the most hypocritical smile I had in my life.
Mo Fei quickly wiped off her tears and stood up, forcing herself to smile, “Really, I am fine. We all have bad days, it will be forgotten after a while.”
Yes, after a while, naturally it will be forgotten. Then I noticed that Mo Fei’s eyes were rubbed red. Because of the makeup, it was difficult to find a slight swelling without looking closely. It turned out that she had already cried before coming to the company.
My heart gradually felt pain again, and I couldn’t help asking myself with a bitter smile, Chu Nan, shouldn’t you also start to learn to forget?
Mo Fei looked down at my thigh, her small face suddenly turned red thoroughly. She quickly turned her head away, took a secret glance at me embarrassedly, and then asked in a low voice, “by the way, why were you looking for me?”
Only until this moment, did I find out that Mo Fei’s tears and snot were stained on the trousers. In that area, it looked like the urine dripping on my trousers. It was very embarrassing.
“Oh, it’s about investment. I have drafted the contract, and I want to show it to you.”
“That’s quick.” Mo Fei’s teary but charming face flashed a strange look that I didn’t understand. It seemed surprised, doubted, and hesitant. Then she bowed her head and walked back to the desk, and pulled out a few tissues from the box, sat down to wipe the tears on her face, while frowning.
Not knowing what she was writing, I was about to ask questions curiously, but she suddenly looked at me and said, “Okay, show me.”
I was dazed, and then I immediately understood that she was struggling just now. After all, it was the first time for her to do such a thing in the office, so it was inevitable that she was nervous.
I was not sure if Mo Fei had a boyfriend, but I knew clearly that for Liusu, sooner or later, I would have to completely stop thinking about Mo Fei. Maybe, this was an opportunity, so I forced myself not to think about it and ask about it, and work was obviously a good escape from reality.
No matter how deep a scar is, it will always heal. All it takes is time. I have a crush on Mo Fei, but that is just a crush, so I can forget that. What I need is only time.
Having figured this out, I was relieved a lot, and then I suddenly remembered my first crush. It was also a crush, and I was also reluctant to let it go. I thought I would never be able to forget her, but now, if I do not think about her deliberately, I think she hardly appears in my memory.
People’s feelings are memories, some are fuzzy, some are slightly clearer.
Feelings can make us forget time, and time can also make us forget feelings, I said to myself.