BXBX NOVEL Chapter 758: I lost her
Sitting on their regular bench, he sighed. He was feeling dejected, defeated and awful, he had never felt so down in his entire life. The feeling of never seeing her again was killing him and what made the feeling worse is that he could do nothing about it.
He didn't want to hold her back and neither did he want to make things awkward between them.
Just then Guang sat beside him and placed his hand on Ashton's shoulder. "You okay man?"
He shrugged his shoulders and chuckled, "I just lost the most important person in my heart, does that sound okay?"
"Qiang told me what happened and asked me to check on you. I had no idea where you were so I had to use illegal methods to get to you," Guang chuckled.
"Hey, did you track me down?" When Guang nodded his head, Ashton sighed, "Thanks for checking on me man but I think I wanna stay alone for a while."
Keeping quiet for quite some time, Guang asked, "Why didn't you tell her?"
"Tell her what?"
"About your feelings and how you are insanely in love with you? I mean maybe she would've stayed and—"
Cutting him off, Ashton sighed, "Maybe she would've but I don't like 'maybe'. I mean if she really felt the way I feel for her, do you think she would've left me alone? Do you think she would've walked out?"
Pausing for a while, he continued, "I don't know why I couldn't convince myself to confess to her but I do know that I don't wanna be someone who tries to come in between what she really wants to do. I want her to live her life the way she wants, she deserves to live a free life and enjoy each and every moment."
"But what about you Ash? What about your feelings and what you want? Are you planning to spend the rest of your life thinking what would've happened if you had told Elsa about your feelings? Do you want to regret this for the rest of her life?" Guang snapped.
Shrugging his shoulders, he shook his head. "Maybe I will but I guess I'll just deal with it. I just didn't wanna make things more difficult for her. I mean imagine how contemplated and confused she would've felt if I had told her about my feelings when she was about to leave? We all know how thankful she is of me and all of us. I just didn't want her to feel guilty and sad for breaking my heart. I—"
When Ashton choked, Guang patted his shoulder. "It's okay, you can cry."
"You will not tell anyone about it right?"
Guang smiled and shook his head, "Our little secret."
Taking out his handkerchief, Ashton sobbed for a while and inquired, "When you were having this separation phase with Qiang, did you cry too?"
"Honesty, I cried when she did. I mean come on, so what if we are men and we are supposed to be tough? We are still human beings and we do bleed. Crying is a universal thing and not just a girly thing so cry as much as you want." Pausing for a while, Guang added, "Mom says that sometimes crying solves everything. It makes you feel light and it relaxes your heart."
Looking up, Ashton took a deep breath. "I lost her man, she wanted to hug me before leaving but I couldn't, I just couldn't hug her because I was worried that if I do, it would break me."
Giving him a hug, Guang tried to console him. "Hey, you'll get over this and everything will be okay. Just give yourself some time and I am sure everything will be fixed. You are most sorted amongst all of us and I am sure you'll find a way out of this."
"I don't see that day coming anytime soon."
"But I am sure it will, every cloud has a silver lining remember?" When Ashton noff4f his head, Guang got up and said, "I'll wait for you in the car, take all the time you want okay? And if you wanna talk to anyone, remember that I am always there for you."
"Thanks man but you can go home if you want to, I'll need to stay here for a while."
Guang sighed and nodded his head before leaving but just then, his phone rang.
"Hmm okay, I'll be right there," he said before hanging up the call.
"What happened?" Ashton inquired.
Thinking for a couple of seconds, Guang answered, "Yushen wants us to go over to his place, it's something very important."
"What happened?" He frowned.
"Well, hmm–" hesitating for a while Guang said, "Someone tried to kill him."
Ashton frowned deeper and jolted up. "What? When? And who?"
Shrugging his shoulders, Guang shook his head, "We need to go there and find out."
"Alright, let's go."
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Li mansion.
"I thought you were coming back on Saturday Zixin," Ming said.
Giving his would be mother-in-law a hug, Zixin answered, "I happened to finish my work earlier so I turned in early."
Patting his back, Ming smiled, "You did great, Yumi was missing you so much."
"When are you parents coming?" Singtan inquired.
"This weekend, they wanted to come with me today but dad had to deal with something important so they got stuck."
"Yumi is in her room," Ming smiled.
Zixin nodded his head and rushed towards Yumi's room. He was away for quite sometime and he was missing her alot.
"Zian it's alright, why don't you rest and I'll be back before you know it." Mian tried to persuade Zian.
Zian frowned and vigorously shook his head. "No, I am going with you."
Main sighed and helplessly shook her head. "I—"
"What is happening here?" Ming inquired.
"Mian has to go to the hospital and she doesn't want me to go with her," Zian complained.
Glaring at him, Mian rolled her eyes before turning towards Ming. "I just don't want him to stress over anything and take some rest, is that too much to ask?"
Cupping Mian's face, Ming chuckled, "Zian is just like his father, they love following their wife's even when they wanna pee. I convinced myself to get used to it honey and you should do that too, there is no way you can escape this."
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