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Unaware of her pregnancy, losing her father and that was not enough she actually saw his dead face, right in front of her. He stared at her with unblinking eyes. 

Then the child. 

What has Adeline not experienced in the matter of days, months Perhaps? 

How was it that he was constantly supposed to be reminded of it? She was tired. Adeline just wanted to rest. 

"When the next time you come here I hope you will be able to answer my questions better and satisfy yourself with them." Gemmika answered.

How was only made Adaline from. What did that mean? Was this conversation over or was she just dismissing Adaline?" 

Gemmika pointed at her. "You need to be more vocal about what you are thinking. There are situations where speaking out loud does not bring any benefit but here you need to do it. You have a question in your mind regarding my intentions and I want you to go ahead and ask it." 

Adeline gulped. "I don\'t want to . . offend you. ."

"You won\'t," Gemmika cut her off in a curt voice, "if you have a question you must get it answered. That is your right."

Adeline looked away before nodding her head and strengthening her resolve. "Why are you dismissing me? We really have not reached anywhere." 

Gemmika bit back a smile. "We have not, yes. But I have understood a few things by listening to you, one of them is Adeline you do not take charge."

"What?" Adeline spat out. " What the hell is supposed to mean?" 

Gemmika smiled gently. It was as if she never felt emotions of anger. "It means how many times has it happened that your life has spiralled out of control and instead of taking control of it you have let it roll on its own?" 

The answer was on the tip of her tongue but she remained silent. 

"It is alright if you do not know the answer. Your aura tells a lot even if you do not want to." 

Adeline licked her lip and sighed. "So then what is it that you are suggesting?" She spoke carefully and slowly. Who knows what her answer could be and if Adaline could actually carry it out. 

"I am not suggesting anything," Gemmika shook her head immediately, "I am not going to tell you what to do with that is not why I\'m here. I am here to make you realise what you should." 

"But what if I am wrong?"

The woman shrugged. "You would have to end up coming back here but I don\'t think that would be a problem given that the views are fabulous." 

Adeline\'s head dipped as she laughed. "They are." 

The views were absolutely fabulous and there was no second thought about that but that was not for what Adeline was worried about. The question was what was she to do and with how the woman was acting it was obvious that she was not going to get any answers that she needed. 

"At least tell me where to start from," Adaline shamefully resorted to begging, "because I will be honest with you. I cannot begin from anew and that would break me because I can never forget that it happened. . ." 

Oh shit. 

"Yes," Gemmika nodded her head in encouragement as she made a circular gesture with her hand, "come on. Say what is in your mind. " 

It was too much to say. It had the right there in front of her yet she was so afraid to say day and night and now that it was on the tip of the tongue. . . she just could not say it. 

"Say it Adeline," 

"I can\'t." Adeline choked on the word. She shook her head, eventually closing her eyes and lowering her head in her hands. 

"Why not?" Gemmika asked ever so calmly. "If you cannot say it then say the reason."

"Because then it would mean that I have moved on from everything that has happened! She yelled at the top of her lungs. "Please tell me. . . how am I supposed to move on from everything that has happened and be happy with the same manner that is pa-partially responsible for what h-happened." She sniffed and stared at the woman in front of her with huge tears in her eyes ready to fall onto her cheeks any moment. 

"What validates that?" Gemmika said very softly as afraid of aggravating Adelene even further. 

Adeline let out a weary breath and shook her head. She palmed her entire face as her shoulders started to shake. She couldn\'t. 

"If you think that, then one could say that I was responsible for the death of my mate too." Gemmika sighed loudly, very uncharacteristic of her. "Do you know why he died?" 

Adelene shook her head out of politeness. If a woman wanted to tell her that she could let it all out. "If you are comfortable enough." 

"He died when I asked him to go and hunt a deer because I was pregnant and I was craving deer meat."

Adeline focused on the woman. She shed no tears neither did her eyes get moisture accumulated over them. Why was she not crying remembering it? 

"Say it," Gemmika said with slight tilt of her head and a smile coming to his face. "Go on," 

"Why are you not crying?" Adeline whispered. "If I was in your place—"

"You are not, you are in your own," Gemmika cut her off. "I moved on. My reasons were completely different from yours and whatever you will find but I have moved onto the better part of my life that I was living eighteen years ago." 

Adeline shook her head. "But it\'s so . . "

"Difficult?" Gemmika completed for her, "there\'s nothing you can do about it because it is already done." 

It was already done and no matter how hard Adeline tried to look over it, it was always going to be there no matter what she did no matter how much she tried. 

"So, it is not about. . ."

"No," Gemmika shook her head, "forgetting about it is never the option."

Perhaps, Adeline knew where to start.