BXBX NOVEL Chapter 170: I Have Pride Too.
The martial arts I have are getting stronger quickly, I have many subordinates, and a lot of money too.
The problem is that the emotion, anger, is still there. Then, when I go back to being Crazy Demon, before I know it, it feels like all my hair will fall out.
It is going to be a frustrating and disappointing thing.
I think to myself as I vent out the anger and then smile realizing that my condition was never normal.
‘T-this is bad. I have a bad temper.’
If someone else saw me right now, I would be sitting here with an angry face only to suddenly start giggling.
I am no different from a crazy guy.
I think it is the right situation to take my anger out on someone else rather than go insane like this alone. I give myself a slap on the cheek and then shout,
“Master Yuk Gap, ask him to come in. Do not waste time and come in fast.”
“Yes, Sect Leader.”
Cha Sung-tae and Seo Gun-Pyung had been with me for quite some time, so I couldn’t go to them without reason.
The Ghost Demon from previous life, master Yuk Hap appears with his hands behind his back and asks me,
“You called?”
I nod my head and point to the seat next to me.
“Sit down. Yuk Gap.”
“…”
“Since I have been eating the food of the Black Rabbit Union for a while, I have been thinking about something.”
He sits down and looks at me.
“…”
“You fucking trash, what were you thinking? Answer me.”
To which he sighs and says,
“It was without thought.”
“No. You must be recovering from the poison little by little. And after recovering and running, you must have been enduring day by day with the thought of completely recovering your martial arts to come get revenge on me, right?”
The man glares at me from the side, then speaks in a low tone.
“Right. You know me well. You look so well into my heart.”
I smiled and he looked at me.
“With your current skills can you avenge?”
To which he smiles as if his anger was hitting its peak.
“I thought I could live very well with the thought of revenge for another three to four years. Wouldn’t that be enough time to catch up?”
“Really?”
I shout out,
“Cha Sung-tae!”
I brush my hair with all my thoughts running through my mind and endure the anger. Cha Sung-tae, who arrives, asks,
“You called?”
“Bring in all the antidotes for poison.”
“I understand.”
It wasn’t until the last fuse in my head got blown that I realized to some extent the reason why I was feeling as such. It is because what I did to this man is the same as what the Demon Cult did to others.
Is that why? I was angry with the Demon Cult, with Yuk Gap, and even myself.
Cha Sung-tae runs with them and Seo Gun-pyeong stands next to me.
“Here.”
I grab one of them and set it down on the table.
“Yuk Gap.”
“Speak.”
“Take all of it and gulp it down. You are a useless bastard who used more of his head. But do you have use in Kangho now? No. Did you ever have any great aspirations and ambitions like a man? Not that either. You are just fucking trash who has a bit of stronger martial arts. Now you go outside and fight till death with the wicked trash of the Demon Cult, because when someone like you stays in the Black Rabbit Union, it makes me feel more uncomfortable.”
The guy narrows his eyes at me.
“Why are you doing this all of a sudden?”
“Why? Do you need me to kill you? No. I have pride. I cannot beat down a weakling after handing him poison. Ah, you too eat well and go now. Right.”
Perhaps because I shouted several times, the people outside were looking into the place.
I glare at Yuk Gap.
“I have always been such a person. Come and go. I am sick of things these days, especially people who are from Kangho. Of course, I live in Kangho so that includes me too. Get out of my sight though, before I smash your head down.”
The guy looks at me and takes the antidote, which he placed near his chest.
I say,
“Come back when your internal Qi is all restored. Then, I will tear you apart and kill you. I have pride too, so I won’t be touching you rat like this. I will wait.”
He quietly gets up and looks at me.
“I will not die till then.”
“Ah. Of course, and when you finish with me, bring all the bugs. I will tear each one to death and lay one corpse over another.”
The guy nods.
“Sure.”
And I feel a bit relieved then.
I am normally a kind person. Since the poison was given in a wrong way, I put my life to save the life, and each time I thought of this man, I would only feel uncomfortable.
The first time we fought, it should have been to the death, but it turned out like this because I felt sorry for the power that Ghost Demon had in the past.
Ghost Demon isn’t someone I could ever have with me.
He had to be bigger, and I had to be stronger.
However, my temper wouldn’t allow me to kill a guy who hadn’t recovered his lost strength. Because I was losing my temper, my subordinates made way for the guy to leave.
After Cha Sung-tae closed the door to the hall, he approaches me and says,
“Sect Leader, why are you so angry today?”
“I know, right?”
Cha Sung-tae sits without saying anything and then says,
“What is it? It is the first time I am seeing you this angry.”
I look at him and say,
“… this time, the Demon Cult is involved in poisoning the people of Kangho and using them. It is the same thing I did with Yuk Gap. I will kill him like that, and it makes me feel bad.”
Cha Sung-tae looks at the ceiling with his arms crossed.
“Well, something like that happened. And the opponents are strong? The power of the Demon Cult.”
“Cult Leader has strong kids with power from their mother’s side.”
“Ah… if it is his sons, killing them would be a problem too. And killing him would be a problem too.”
A knocking sound was heard in the main hall, and Seo Gun-pyeong showed his face.
“Sect Leader, can I come in?”
“Come in.”
The door opens and he comes in saying,
“Teacher Ho Yeon1 went to see him off. It looks like the two of them have gotten to know each other a bit.”
I knew what he was speaking about and didn’t bother reacting.
“I get it.”
The two of them looked at them, and Seo Gun-pyeong asks,
“Sect Leader, why are you so angry today?”
“Do I seem like that?”
“Yes.”
I am honest with them.
“I am angry because you are all idiots. I am angry because I am the same too. No matter where I try to take you guys, you all fight, I cannot even feel a thing. It is true that all of you are weaker compared to Yuk Hap. If his martial arts are strong, he gets to act like it. It looks like the people under his care will be taken out and searched for by all. I am angry at myself for this and that and this… that is my condition right now.”
Seo Gun-pyeong replies with an angry expression.
“I don’t practice every day to be protected by the Sect Leader like some child.”
Even this guy is angry at me.
I nod.
“The three kids of the Cult huh.”
As soon as the word Demonic Cult came in, everyone went silent. Seo Gun-pyeong sighs and says,
“Sect Leader.”
“What?”
“Tell us where we need to fight. We are training to fight.”
“It cannot be that all their forces are strong right? It cannot be. The middle level will be middle. Isn’t it the strong ones who collide with each other and die if one of them is weak? In the meantime, it wouldn’t be strange if one of the captain level warriors of theirs ends up being dead.”
“It would be quite touching, but the Demonic Cult isn’t such a place.”
I nod at their words and feel a presence around. I ask,
“What? Why didn’t you two go?”
As soon as I finished, the door opens with Yuk Hap and Ho Yeon Cheong out, with Ho Yeon Cheong saying,
“I don’t know. Teacher Yuk Hap came to me and then came back.”
Teacher Yuk Hap took out the antidote I gave him and tossed it into his mouth.
“Sect Leader, who do I fight?”
“Why?”
He sighs as he says,
“I keep getting angry and have no place to unwind.”
“….”
“Do not worry. I will challenge you later. This time, I want to join the Low-Down Sect and fight. If you feel bad about me joining, it cannot be helped. I heard from teacher Ho Yeon that there might be a fight with the Demon Cult.”
I was about to ask him how I would trust him, but I held my words. Well, if I can trust him, it would be like using the Ghost Demon’s power.
If the Ghost Demon of this time decides to betray me, it will only make things very slightly difficult. The problem is, I am already in a situation where I am losing my hair.
And I don’t want to ask the Murim Alliance for help. I don’t want to call the Sword Demon or Pervert Demon either.
Because this is something I should be shouldering with my sect and the others have their own problems in real life.
It’s just disgusting to be indebted to someone whenever things get hard.
Actually, I was angry along with my subordinates here and I was going to run out right now because controlling is hard. It was my intention to go alone, drink alcohol, wait, and then torture that White Face.
If the Ghost Demon of the past life joins me now, did the difficulty go up or down?
“Yuk Hap?”
“Speak.”
“Get some rest today. The two of us will attack tomorrow.”
I honestly disclosed my current condition to them.
“Because I am on the verge of going insane now. I will sleep until tomorrow so do not wake me up. Oh, of course, if there are any guys breaking in, I will take care of it…”
I got up and waved to my subordinates.
“Wait.”
Seo Gun-pyeong intervenes,
“You are going with just two people?”
“See, do not be angry and practice when you get angry. I can tell by looking at you, how your skills are. Do not mess around if you don’t have skills. Okay? I am not taking you there and shoving you to death. I trust that you will hone your skills and fight beside me someday, but not now, not today, not tomorrow.”
“Sect Leader. Then why is…”
It seemed like Seo Gun-pyeon was angry with me today, so I calmly say,
“Look.”
“Yes.
“Teacher Yuk Hap is ten times stronger than you. If I go somewhere and die, you people will have to lead the Low-Down Sect. However, if something happens to me for real, then realize that all the enemies would have died.”
I point my finger at Yuk Hap.
“Of course, even if that bastard betrays me, I will end up taking him to hell with me.”
As I headed to the room, I took my robe off and threw it aside. Time has been wasted, so I thought I should sleep. When I opened the door, I had already unpacked all the clothes. After putting the dagger beside the bed, I closed my eyes and, in an instant, I forgot everything.
The thoughts were shaken, and worries erased. After draining all the strength from my body, I passed out into a defenseless state.
Sleep rushed over me like waves and took over my consciousness and then I drifted into oblivion.
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As soon as I opened my eyes, I grabbed my dagger and looked out the window. Seeing that the sun was shining, it seemed that I had been asleep for a long time and when I looked around the room I noticed my clothes were scattered.
I came to my senses and picked them up to dress myself.
How much did I sleep?
Suddenly, I felt thirsty, so I opened the door and tried to move, but something caught on the door not making it move. Feeling the presence of people outside, I push through it…
I look at the attendants of the Black Rabbit Union blinking.
“What are you doing?”
“Ah. Sect Leader, you awake?”
Looking to the left and right, I see my subordinates sleeping against the walls.
“What is with those guys?”
“Just standing guard.”
“There are a dozen standing guard.”
“It is like this because Mister Seo told us to do it. If we lack skills and then use numbers, he said.”
I nod and kick the guy who was sleeping.
“Get out of the way. You bastards, get up, I woke up and now you are sleeping. Wake up everyone…”
Only then did the leaning back sleepy ones stand up to greet me.
“You are awake?”
“Ah, right. I think you slept better though, wipe that drool off.”
“Yes.”
I break through the hallway and look at the guards.
“But how long did I sleep?”
“You slept for two and half days.”
I shake my hands.
“Rest.”
It looked like I slept too much. I don’t remember a thing because I didn’t dream and only the memory of being angry at my subordinates is what my brain holds.
I passed through the main hall and looked at Yuk Hap who was sitting cross legged under the plum tree.
“Yuk Hap.”
After he opened his eyes, he asks,
“Sect Leader, you ready?”
I nod and walk down.
“Let’s go.”
The past life’s Ghost Demon got up without a word and followed me. As I was heading to the inner garden, I suddenly remember something, so, I ask him,
“And what of the poison?”
Two days after taking the antidote is enough time for it to work. To which he says,
“Actually, Physician Moyong seems to be quite busy, so he didn’t notice it. But it sort of solved it. And the next day he immediately gave another antidote, so that helped too.”
Suddenly, various thoughts crossed my mind and I looked at Ho Yeon who bowed to me.
“Sect Leader, have a nice trip.”
Come to think of it, I am not the kind of person who can integrate Ghost Demon into my men at all. Rather, I thought that Ho Yeon would have better luck changing the mind of Ghost Demon. This wasn’t my task at all.
So, I tell Ho Yeon,
“I will come back safe.”
“Yes.”
Editor’s Notes