BXBX NOVEL Chapter 72 72: They Never Change
"What do you want to talk about?"
Corey hearing that question licked his dry lips and gulped subconsciously.
His heart, lips and entire being wanted to speak three words, just three words which had been in his mind and heart for a very long time.
Those three words could either make him or break him.
It could either bring him immense joy or immense sadness.
He inhaled then exhaled a few times before he forcibly calmed himself down.
\'Come on man, you\'ve fought terrifying monsters before and you\'re too scared to tell a girl you love her?
Man up motherfucker, it\'s just saying three words. What\'s the worst that can happen?\'
Motivating himself internally, Corey suddenly gained the courage and he looked at Becca who was still waiting though Corey could see that she had a slightly worried and nervous expression.
"Becca I have something I want, no, need to tell you."
He said then exhaled softly and opened his lips to speak his heart but just as he was about to speak, he was interrupted by Becca.
"Are you going to tell me you love me?"
She asked and Corey froze, not expecting her to say those words.
His mind was blank for a few seconds before he nodded softly.
The previous courage he had to confess his love was gone, only nervousness remained in his rapidly beating heart as he waited for the one word answer from Becca.
Meanwhile Becca seeing Corey nod had a complicated expression on her face. She then looked away from Corey and kept quiet for a few seconds causing the hope in Corey\'s heart to diminish by the second.
"I… I\'m sorry Corey but nothing can be between us. I don\'t love you, I just see you as a friend, a very close friend. I\'m sorry but just let us be friends."
Hearing Becca\'s reply, something shattered in Corey\'s heart.
Her words did not contain malice nor did it contain disdain, it was even slightly nervous, but it hurt Corey more than anything.
"Why? With the way we used to chat and talk over the phone, I thought there was something between us?"
With his head hung low, he asked.
His voice sounded desperate, almost pleading in fact.
He needed to know why?
They had talked so many times over the phone and even in real life.
Their conversations most of the times were filled with laughter, jokes, speaking extensively about their days and even their future.
They had talked so much about their lives that Corey was almost tempted to tell her about his true self.
It was just his fear of how she would view him that stopped him from telling her.
"There was a time I liked you, but… you didn\'t ask me on time."
Becca sighed after speaking and Corey\'s pupils shook slightly.
"I thought you said you didn\'t love me? You said you only see me as a friend?"
Corey asked with a confused expression while his heart was filled regret.
If he only he knew…
Meanwhile Becca had a conflicting expression on her face for some seconds before she spoke once more:
"I was interested in you at some point in time and I gave you signals but you ignored them. It was like you were not interested in me at all at that time so my interest in you reduced."
Corey hearing Becca\'s words had the urge to just curse or do something to release his pent up frustration in his heart and body. He rubbed his forehead then his face and he just shook while heaving a regretful and frustrating sigh.
If only he knew…
Just as this thought passed through his mind and his heart was filled with regret, he became extremely stunned, no, immensely, in fact, any word that could quantify something larger than immensely should be used the moment he heard Becca\'s next words.
"Also, Luke came back to me and apologized for everything he had done to him. I didn\'t want to accept him back at first, but he promised he wouldn\'t do all that he did to me again and I still love him so I accepted him back and now we\'re dating again.
That\'s the main reason we can\'t date. I don\'t want to cheat on Luke."
As soon as Becca finished speaking, the room became silent as Corey was stunned for a few seconds before he asked with a very confused expression and tone.
"Which Luke are you talking about?"
"What do you mean by that? How many Luke\'s do you know?"
Becca was confused and asked curiously, not knowing why Corey would ask such a question.
"You mean the blonde tall bastard that broke your heart not once, not twice but three fucking times?"
Corey asked as the confusion on his face deepened.
He was truly, and I mean truly confused if the Luke Becca was talking about was the same bastard he hated.
"Watch your tone Corey. Although I value you as a very close friend, that does not mean you can demean my boyfriend like that. If you were my boyfriend also, I\'ll not allow anybody to speak about you like that."
Becca spoke with a threatening tone causing Corey to raise his brows, shoulders and hands in a shrugging gesture as he spoke:
"But I\'m not your boyfriend so don\'t tell me that."
Corey spoke with a snarky tone startling Becca slightly.
Not caring about her reaction or feelings, he continued speaking:
"Are you alright by the way? How can you agree to go back to him after all he did to you?"
"How dare you ask me that Corey?!"
Becca stood with an expression which she would never show Corey on a normal day, it was an expression Corey had never seen before and one which shook his heart slightly.
Becca was crying.
She had an expression of anger on her face but with this anger was sadness and a look of betrayal. With the tears streaming down her face, Corey felt an inexplicable feeling in his heart.
The feeling was not fake, it was not a mask. It was as real as it got.
He felt… regret.
"The reason I even bothered telling you about Luke and I is because I thought you would offer me your support! I thought you were a friend!
My other friends ridiculed me when I told them and I wanted, no, expected you to support me!
What kind of a friend are you?!"
"How the hell do you expect me to support you?! To give you my blessings?!
Are you dumb?!"
Despite the fact that he felt bad making Becca cry, the words she spoke were so anger-inducing that it was almost driving Corey mad.
He literally, like literally just told her he loved her but she still wanted him to support her relationship with Luke as a good friend?
What was he?
A cuck?
A fool?
Just remembering her words made his blood boil in anger and when he remembered her past relationships with Luke, his anger reached the peak.
"You know what?
You\'re stupid. Very stupid."
Corey said and Becca was stunned to stupor. Three seconds later, she stuttered as she spoke:
"Wh- What did you just call me?"
"I called you a fool. A fucking big fool!"
With his blood boiling in rage, Corey stood up from the bed and pointed at Becca.
"On your first relationship with Luke, you guys broke up because your friends found out he cheated on you with somebody else. You didn\'t want to believe it at first, but when you caught him cheating on you with another girl, you finally believed and broke up with him."
"Your second relationship. I don\'t know what made you to go back to him but you broke up with him because he fucking beat you at one point in time because he was angry.
He fucking beat you!"
"The second time should have made you to realize he was in no way good for you but you still ended up dating him… again!!
And the third time, the reason you broke up was because you caught him cheating on you with one of your fucking friends!!"
"So fucking tell me if you\'re not stupid for agreeing to date him again. What the fuck is all of this?!
Are you sure you\'re mentally alright?!
Why the fuck do you like toxic relationships?!"
Corey shouted as he poured out all the things in his heart that made him to have so much anger.
He was angry.
Extremely angry.
He cared for Becca and he definitely did not want to see her get hurt again especially due to the bastard Luke but her words, her decisions were so baffling that it caused Corey\'s rage to reach an extremely high level.
Meanwhile Becca was stunned and slightly scared seeing the anger on Corey\'s expression and tone.
She never expected Corey to raise his voice at her like this since he was always gentle towards her.
With a quivering and soft tone, she replied to Corey\'s words though her words were not filled with confidence.
"He- He- He said he\'ll change. He said he won\'t hurt me again. He promised me."
"HE\'LL NEVER CHANGE!!
PEOPLE LIKE HIM NEVER FUCKING CHANGE!!
HOW DO YOU EXPECT DEVILS TO CHANGE!!
JUST STOP BEEN FUCKING STUPID AND USE YOUR DAMN HEAD!!"
Corey\'s rage had surpassed his limits as he roared at the top of his voice hearing the stupid excuse Becca was giving him.
He felt like pulling, no, tearing his hair out.
If he could knock some sense into her damn head, he would surely give her the biggest, loudest and hardest knock he could give and he will sure as hell give her some more, just to be sure she never loses her sense.
He exhaled then inhaled for some seconds trying to cool his anger.
He looked at Becca and saw her trembling with tears streaming down her face.
Corey felt a little bit of guilt and regret seeing her expression and he wondered if he had gone too far.
"Becca. I\'m-"
He moved towards her and stretched out his hands, wanting to touch her and apologize but,
Pa!
His hand was slapped away forcefully.
Becca wiped her tears and looked at Corey with a face filled anger, betrayal, fear, regret and a whole lot of other expressions which could not be put into words.
The room was uncomfortably silent as both of them just stared at each other. Corey who was beginning to feel more uncomfortable decided to break the silence, but just as he opened his mouth to speak, Becca spoke:
"The reason for me doing all that I did is because of love. I love Luke, I care for him.
If I tried to explain it in words you wouldn\'t understand because you\'ve truly never fallen in love with somebody."
Corey opened his mouth to speak but Becca just pushed him aside and walked to the door, she opened it and slammed the door shut causing a loud bang.
Just as she was about to continue walking away, she was startled when she saw somebody in front of her. She looked up and she spoke up subconsciously.
"Mrs. Ashley?"
Mrs. Ashley looked at Becca who had her eyes down. She could see she was trying to keep her tears in.
"Go. I\'ll come and meet you later so that we\'ll talk. Don\'t meet anybody else."
She said then moved away, creating a path for Becca to pass through.
Becca looked at her for a second then she bowed her head slightly before walking away, not saying a word.
Mrs. Ashley looked at her retreating back for a few seconds before she sighed then walked to Corey\'s room and opened the door.
She looked around finding the floor to be littered with some destroyed objects.
"What do you want?"
She heard Corey\'s grumpy voice and saw him sitting on the edge of the bed while covering his face with both hands.
"I came here because I heard noises and I also wanted to ask when you plan on going to check out the tier 2 monster at the gate?"
She asked and Corey without looking at her or removing his hands from his head replied:
"I\'ll go when I want to go. Just leave me alone and let me get my shit together."
Mrs. Ashley did not reply for a few seconds as she looked at Corey, a contemplative light appeared in her eyes before she shook her head and walked towards the door.
"You should apologize to her when she has calmed down." She advised then walked out of the room.
A few seconds later Corey removed his hands from his face and looked up.
"Why is my life so shitty?"
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[A/N: 7 Chapters to go!!]