BXBX NOVEL Chapter 356 355: Time For A Talk
Jahi PoV
Lady Sker sat the Councilors down and discussed their future with them, before Adelina and Mom eventually joined us as well.
The three began to discuss the fine details of everything, though they mainly remained on the current situation and how the Councilors needed to calm the citizenry and begin to shift them from the closed thinking of human supremacy to something more... broad and realistic.
As those discussions were happening, I grew bored and turned towards Anput and Leone, beckoning for them to follow me, before telling Iaso and Liga to do as they pleased.
Leading my fiancee\'s out of the Council Hall, we walked in silence around the palace before I led us into one of the many bedrooms found on the third floor, well away from the various troops still sweeping the palace for more enemies.
Entering the lavish bedroom, I gestured for them to take a seat at the large table, before I made my way over towards the window to overlook the gardens.
Peering back over my shoulder, I watched as Leone sat elegantly in her chair while Anput flopped onto the bed, stretching out her muscles with a low moan.
"I did say we would talk soon, so... let\'s talk."
That made Anput sit back up instantly, her obsidian eyes finding mine as her ears twitched, while Leone let out a sigh as she interlaced her fingers.
For a few moments, the room remained silent, and I looked down over the beautiful garden, dozens of vibrant flowers and lush trees occupying a large courtyard and creating a serene, peaceful meeting area.
"What was that, back at the first Mage Tower?"
Leone spoke first, her voice steady as she glanced at me, while Anput followed it up with a low growl.
"It seemed like you had been contemplating the words of that pathetic human... Were you?"
Both of them stared at me with hard eyes, both of which flashed their respective colors - shining silver and burning crimson - before they reined in their emotions.
Chuckling, I turned and leaned against the glass, looking them over for a moment, enjoying the way they reacted to their very own questions.
"It was curiosity that drove my actions. I was curious to see what exactly a human would be willing to do to remain alive, especially one that was praying to her god not even seconds before hand. As for my words..."
Sighing, I pursed my lips before continuing on, deciding to get this out of the way now, before it caused more trouble later on.
"Me saying that I would use her to stave off my lust? I wasn\'t lying. If I wasn\'t blessed with the both of you, I likely would have been picking out women here and there to satisfy myself... Mainly because of my... inclinations."
Raising a brow, Leone tilted her head in confusion as she asked "Inclinations?"
Smiling, I took a deep breath before saying "I\'m sure you both have noticed it, but when we have sex, I top. Never the other way around; I am on top, I am dominating you both, and there has only ever been a few times where I relinquish control during sex. However, I\'m not just satisfied with being on top..."
Trailing off, I felt my heart twang slightly as I pushed forwards, understanding that I needed this to be said now.
"You both have heard how I... how I used to bed her. Sometimes, you both got to see what she looked like when I was done. Bruised, battered, and honestly... if someone else had seen her, they would think I had... raped her. That\'s what I mean by \'inclinations\'. I relish the sounds of pain she made as I fucked her, I loved the way her skin slowly turned red as I abused her... Whatever I wanted to do to her, no matter how terrible, she accepted it.
We used to have nights, depending on who felt the urge more, where we would role-play being an abusive Noble and a poor Maid, taking it further than just being dominated. She would ask me to treat her like a toy, to use her however I pleased, and I did. Back at the Capital, when we all began to make love together, she was... relegating herself to sating my darker urges, so that when I sought out either of you, I never slipped and demanded to be satisfied the same way that she satisfied me."
The room fell into silence again, and Leone was blushing hard while Anput pursed her lips, looking towards the floor.
Leone stood up, her face still red, but she made an effort to look at me, meeting my gaze before flinching.
"S-So... y-you\'re saying all this because... b-because you want us t-to help you with those urges? Y-You want to be r-r-rougher whenever we have s-sex?"
Smiling softly at her, I nodded and said "It\'s either that, or... I look elsewhere. I don\'t want to, but I know that I\'ll be tempted time and time again. I want to hear those screams, the pleads, and I want to see the... \'damage\' I\'ve done to the woman under me. I\'ve... accepted that part of me, because she accepted it as well. But, she\'s gone. And all that I\'m left with is a building desire to have what she used to give me."
Anput and Leone flinched at the start of my words, their eyes flickering back to silver and crimson as they glared at me, before they looked away as I continued on.
Kicking her feet off of the bed, Anput sighed before getting up, her obsidian eyes unsure.
"It\'s... hard. Jahi, what you\'re asking for isn\'t something small. Both of us are already unable to keep up with you normally, but you want to take it so much further? Add onto that the fact that you\'re admitting that, if we don\'t do this for you, you WILL be looking elsewhere?"
Her tone was unsteady, and slightly hurt.
I took a deep breath at that, my heart aching at the way she spoke, and the way that Leone nodded as she listened to Anput.
"This isn\'t fair, Jahi. You place an impossible task before us and tell us that, if we fail it, then something equally impossible will happen. Do you think we\'d just \'let\' you find someone else? Even if the person you found was just some... temporary hole for you to use, do you understand what that would make us feel?"
Approaching me, Anput looked up into my eyes, her silvers meeting my golds as she placed her hand on my abdomen.
"I love you, Jahi. I really do... but if I learn that you broke the promise you made to me, I\'m not remaining here. Not with you. You swore to love us and only us, to be with us and only us. If you turn away from that, then... how am I meant to trust you going forwards?"
She remained in front of me, her hand resting on my abs before sliding downwards.
"It\'s impossible, and you know it, but... damnit..."
Cursing softly, she sighed as she slipped her hand under my belt, before shifting to the side as Leone joined her as well.
"We... have to try, at the very least... Jahi, I really, really love you. I love you, I love Anput, and I love Kat. I want us all to remain together, as a family. So... please, try. Try and keep yourself in control, and understand that... we aren\'t her. We can\'t be her, no matter how much we want to soothe your heart. Please, Jahi... try and learn to feel that same satisfaction with us in different ways then how you did with Kat. Explore more of us, just like we\'ll explore more of you... Maybe we can all find common ground that works for us all... we just need to try first."
My breathing turned slightly haggard as Leone\'s hand joined Anput\'s, and I nodded as I reached down, pulling them both in closer to me.
"I... I don\'t want to lose either of you... I can\'t lose either of you, not now, not ever... So, I\'ll try my best, but..."
Biting my cheek, I felt a small amount of blood seep over my tongue as my heart continued to throb dully inside my chest, the void I felt from the lack of the third woman spiraling larger and larger.
Growling softly, I walked us over to the bed and fell onto it, my lips finding Anput\'s while my hands pulled Leone over towards me.
I couldn\'t lose them too.
However, I understood that I would need something more from them to keep myself satiated, lest I make a mistake that I would never be able to recover from...
We still had so much to talk about, but for now, our actions would speak much louder than any words possibly could right now.