BXBX NOVEL Chapter 691: Lee Kiyoung, You Piece of Crap (5)
Chapter 691: Lee Kiyoung, You Piece of Crap (5)
“What do you mean by that?”
“Didn’t I say that it’s just a precaution? It’s always like this. You don’t have to overreact.”
“So… So now that’s… what is this situation? Why… Why are you…”
“Someone needs someone to fix things. We’re not playing between children, right? The continent is in a crisis right now, and a great battle will begin in two days that can’t be compared to any wars we’ve fought before.”
“…”
“It won’t be strange if any one of us dies. Hyejin can die, or one of the guild members can die. That’s why we also have a manual if other people die. That’s why this isn’t something to overreact to. Think about the symbolic meaning of the name Lee Kiyoung on the continent. I don’t think I’m a great person, but they will likely be confused. Not only the continent’s people but also the Blue Guild members. I need someone to fix it.”
“I’m asking why you made something like this!”
‘Gosh, fuck, Hyejin. Why are you so agitated? Do you want to be Doom Hyejin?’
“Why do you keep making me say things twice? I already told you. It’s a precaution.”
“A written instruction made for a specific situation? Stop with the nonsense. This… this…”
“…”
“Are… Are you planning to die?”
‘Fuck. Did I make it too detailed?’
Surprisingly, Cho Hyejin was more angered than I expected. It felt good seeing that she thought of me that much, but it was even more disconcerting.
“Why is someone who knows my personality like this? Do you think I’m going to die?”
“Then explain… explain it.”
“But I have nothing to explain. It’s just as it is. That’s all you have to keep in mind. I mean, why are you even reacting like this?”
I seriously wondered if Cho Hyejin was the wrong choice.
‘You told me not to tarnish his pride. Hyejin.’
Where the hell did AKA-Y.T.N.T.H.P-Cho Hyejin go? (Note: Y.T.N.T.H.P - short for ‘You Told me Not to Tarnish His Pride’)
Why didn’t she know that acting like that at that moment tarnished Light Kiyoung’s pride?
‘Fuck… act a little more Y.T.N.T.H.P, really.’
Her face showed that she would never back off, and it made me all anxious. From my standpoint, I decided to sacrifice everything with the light. Hence, it wouldn’t be unreasonable to feel disconcerted.
Who wasn’t afraid of death in the first place? I, too, made a lot of decisions for my loved ones, and one of those decisions was to sacrifice myself for them.
With Cho Hyejin reacting like that, I was forced to have an extra hard time.
‘Won’t she tell Kim Hyunsung?’
My anxiety was definitely soaring. She was looking at me more hostile than in the first timeline.
Tears hadn’t yet flowed down, but it seemed that she was holding up her tears desperately. She probably wasn’t capable of making sound judgments, considering how she was panicking.
Her face looked like she would cause some trouble, almost like she would make an extreme choice one way or another.
“Don’t bullsh*t me. I said… don’t bullsh*t. I’ll… I’ll pretend I didn’t see this. So put it back in.”
‘This is fucking mutiny. It’s called disobedience.’
As a supervisor, I wondered if it would be better to give her a piece of my mind, but we weren’t in an atmosphere where I could do that. Cho Hyejin’s breathing became harsher as her ominous thoughts continued.
“Don’t think of this again. Lee Kiyoung, you’re not going to die. You will never die.”
‘No. I have to die. Why do you keep doing this?’
“Don’t do anything unnecessary and read it properly.”
“I already said no.”
“I have only Hyejin. I only have you.”
“…”
“Didn’t I say… that this is just a precaution?”
“H-How can I believe those words…?”
‘Ah. She’s getting emotional.’
“How the hell… am I… supposed to believe that. Every time… you open your mouth… you lie.”
She sounded more and more sorrowful. Intermittently, I heard sniffing sounds from her. She might not even be aware of that.
Cho Hyejin wasn’t stupid. It wasn’t like her to shed tears due to excessive emotions after reading the documents I prepared.
Maybe she was also roughly expecting it. She might’ve been aware of the great trials and fears I had to face, the sacrifices that would bear all of them.
Cho Hyejin knew a little about Lee Kiyoung. She knew that I wouldn’t throw my life away for no reason, and she also understood that I wasn’t the type that sacrificed myself for others.
It was natural for her to come up with an answer. It was a little different from what I intended, but it seemed that Cho Hyejin thought that it wasn’t just memory loss.
It wasn’t just the memories I had with everyone that was dying.
It was Lee Kiyoung himself that was going to die.
That’s why I was able to accept everything, and that’s why I was able to talk so calmly.
“Every time… you open… sniff… your mouth… you lie.”
She was wiping away the tears with her hands as if she became aware of them belatedly.
“So, take it… Take it back… Because I will never believe… in such a lie. Saying it’s okay… I don’t believe it.”
“…”
“Take it. Take it, you trash bastard. Take it!”
“…”
“Did you think I’d like it if I received something like this? You… You deceiving bastard. Was it because of this that you asked to meet today? Did you invite me to play chess to say something like this? You said we’d play chess leisurely… sniff… did you ask me to play chess… did you call me to show me something like this?”
“You are…”
“You mean bastard. You dirty trash bastard … now… Do you feel refreshed now?!”
“Hyejin…”
“Answer me! If you pretend to carry everything on your own… you think you could be something? Sniff… Teasing people like that on top of other people’s heads. Do you feel a little better now? Seeing me crying and talking. Do you feel relieved?”
“…”
“I thought you were better than this. You… do you really want to be that guy? Are you going to give up? You said you wouldn’t die. You said you would never die. That you are confident about keeping your life… you said you would live until you become senile! You said that! You… son of a bitch … sniff… son of a bitch. You said you would live.”
“…”
“You could’ve told me. If you had, I could have found another way. You said that you would make Hyunsung and I end up together. That too… It was all a lie too. It was all lies…”
“…”
“When you told me that we would have fun after work, we would play chess all night after work, that we would catch up with each other, and we would go shopping together… all… It was all a lie… all, sniff… it was all a lie.”
“I…”
“Don’t apologize. Don’t apologize!”
“Am…”
“Don’t apologize! Sniff… Don’t apologize!!! You lying bastard! Son of a bitch!!! Sniff… Sniff… Don’t apologize…”
“Sorry…”
“Don’t apologize!!!!!”
“Calm down…”
“Don’t tell me to calm down. Son of a bitch. Son of a bitch. Lying bastard…”
“…”
“Tell me…”
“Tell you what…”
“Since when. Tell me everything. What the hell is going on, exactly where the problem is. Tell me. I deserve to hear it. I… I deserve that much. Exactly how much time is left… tell me.”
“…”
“I told you to talk.”
“So…”
“If you lie, I will break your mouth.”
“I don’t know exactly…”
“…”
“Sigh…”
“…”
“…”
“It didn’t take that long. I don’t know exactly when, but it didn’t take long to realize the symptoms… I didn’t even hide it on purpose. Does it make sense to say that it’s been a while since I noticed it?”
“…”
“I don’t know what happened, but… this is not something that can be prevented. If there were a way, I would have found it first.”
“How… can you judge that?”
“…”
There was no need for other words. I slowly spread the wings of light. In an instant, my whole body began to shine brightly, and a great divinity overflowed from me.
The light that illuminated the dark room didn’t look magnificent but rather melancholic.
It reached the extent that it couldn’t be expressed in words. That was how sorrowful it felt.
“Is it… because of this…?”
As I shook my head, I saw her wiping away her tears once more. There was no need to explain it in words. It wouldn’t be strange even if Lee Kiyoung’s body fell before.
Wouldn’t it be possible to notice it with a little thought? If she knew how much I’d been working my body to the ground, I was sure she’d notice.
I crossed the huge line several times with my weak body. I had the good fortune to see the scenery that I had never seen in my life, with my colleagues beyond what I deserved.
I had gone through a lot. It was difficult, and sometimes I shed tears, but I enjoyed the whole process. Adversity and pain made me stronger. Yes, it was such an act. I thought that would be nice.
However, my body couldn’t endure those times. There was a time when demons caught me, and my body was so ruined that it was a miracle that I was still alive, and there were times when I took medicine for side effects and endured each day.
I didn’t even notice it, but Lee Kiyoung was dying slowly.
What maintained my dying body was a huge divinity that any normal human couldn’t handle. Goddess Benignore regarded a human as pitiful and gave him time to endure a deity’s power until the end of all his work.
“Don’t… don’t lie.”
“…”
“Sniff… Sniff… Don’t lie… Please… Please tell me that’s a lie.”
It wasn’t a lie.
“Please… I’m asking you. Tell me… that’s a lie, please…”
“I’m not lying.”
There was no lie in the eyes that wanted to protect the Light Kiyoung’s continent, no, my people.
“Sniff… how… how…”
Honestly, the word sacrifice didn’t go well with Lee Kiyoung.
“It’s not like me, but…”
However, I also thought I wanted to do something. It wouldn’t be such a bad ending if she noticed that the end had already come.
“Well, let’s think it’s returning as much as I received. I didn’t know I would think this way, but… since I’m already doing this, it has to be done properly.”
“…”
“Who knows? If things go well, maybe Benignore will save me as a reward. Honestly, I want to throw everything and run away, but I’m scared that she’ll take away the divinity that maintains my body if I made such a choice. Imagine, at best, that I used the divinity she provided to save the continent for me to escape. If I were a god, I would have punished such a disgusting human.”
“Sniff…”
“I’m doing this for everybody to live, so don’t be bothered. I have changed a little too.”
“Sniff… Sniff…”
“I probably wouldn’t have thought of this in the past. I wouldn’t care if anyone died… I just suddenly thought that way. It seems that it was you who planted on me the idea of responsibility. Responsibility for the people I belong to and who are with me. Still, I’m not used to it, so I don’t know what to say.”
“Sniff… Sniff… Sniff… Ugh.”
“It’s not like me, and I’m embarrassed to say this, but I am proud of my actions, of my pride. I feel like I should be a little bit happy about that.”
“Sniff… Sniff…”
“So.”
“Sniff…”
“Don’t tarnish my pride.”
“…”
“…”
“Lee Kiyoung… you trash bastard…”
“…”
“Lee Kiyoung… Lee Kiyoung… you fucking trash scammer… Sniff…”
In the room as white as light, a sobbing sensation began to resonate.
“You… hic… scammer… sniff… bastard…”