BXBX NOVEL Chapter 58: Painful thoughts
When you commanded me to re enter your Mindspace, upon the return of my emotions I had a unique vision like no other one before it. A vision of what could have been." Onyx\'s body began to shudder once more upon remembering it but calmed down once she felt my presence between her arms.
"The vision showed myself not hesitating before lifting you out of the pool and attacking while you were still submerged. Orchid was too slow as I plunged my blade into your body." A wetness fell upon my head as she continued.
"I did not see what happened after that as I forcefully prevented the nightmarish vision from taking hold of me but the damage had been done as you saw I became undone my psyche could not handle the possibility of of-"
Noticing the fragile murder machine about to lose her emotions again I positioned myself so her head was on my chest and began stroking my hands along her tentacles "Shhh. Shhh. Silly bug. Nothing happened I\'m here. It was probably just your ability trying to warn you while you were affected by the cocoon and finally got through once you were somewhere familiar."
Onyx nodded her head at my conclusion finding the explanation sound while melting into my head pats. I decided to spend the week inside my mindscape making sure Onyx returned into her normal crazy self instead of her saddened crazy self. I spent a lot of the week silently contemplating her vision though I could have genuinely died due to a lapse of judgement in Orchids training.
I had died before and know what comes after but I did not wish to experience that anytime soon. I had to continue to grow my psionic gifts and improve my body further. both go in tangent with the other to get stronger so I decided to re affirm my commitment to my growth.
While i was thinking of ways to speed up my progress Onyx who had returned to normal was watching me with intensity. She had almost caused the death of her everything. She was supposed to be his cloak and shield and yet she acted like a sword. A thought popped into her mind for a moment. It was an order from another member of the hive that forced herself to act in that fashion. Perhaps...
A sharp pain rang though her head at her thoughts at the direction they were going. Every member of the hive has an ingrained layer of loyalty built into their genome and the thoughts she was about to have encroached on betrayal.
Snapping back into the moment, Onyx looked down on her torso at the only thing that mattered to her, Apollo\'s Mind projection was laying on her thinking away like the brilliant mate that he is. So forgiving, so loving, so understanding Onyx wanted nothing more than to switch into her other form and have him ravish her with his rod but she could not.
The time was not yet right Her thoughts slipped back into grey areas.
Allowing herself the pain for a short while, she felt that perhaps she did not have to take orders from the queen or the hive in total any longer as they could accidentally cause pain to her love in the future. The pain was at the cusp of breaking her genetic code but she kept on thinking.
"As Apollos cloak what if I only followed his wishes and commands he is after all technically the king of our hive." Onyx felt the pain underneath her skin rise and fall as though sentient and deciding if this stalker variant had betrayed its self and in doing so the hive. Onyx kept a calm surface for the comfort of Apollo while the pain was surmounting. but suddenly it subsided.
It seems Onyx loyalty to the hive while shaky, was still in effect. She had forsaken the rule of the queen to serve the king, an equally important role and one the subconscious of the hive had evidently agreed on.
A wave of peace passed over Onyx at the thought. She brushed her 3 fingers through my hair in happiness. I looked up upon being distracted from my thoughts. Onyx was smiling a proper cheerful smile for the first time since Her spiral which brought me joy. What did not bring me joy however was the deep green hue her eyes turned into upon making contact.
I was prepared to face Crazy Onyx for a moment but her eyes seemed different at the moment. There was a hint of... clarity? "Are you ok sweetie? Your green is showing." Onyx smiled turned cuter for a moment before responding. "Yes my Love I am fine more than fine.
For the first time without my foresight I know exactly how our future together will be and that makes me happy."
I did not bother following up she mentioned foresight so I did not want to know as I have had plenty of warning from Jewel not to ask Onyx about futures so i gave her a smile before going back to my own thoughts.
A few hours later and with deeming Onyx as her good old self I decided to go and get some food as I could start to feel the hunger In my projection. With a quick kiss to Onyx and double check she was fine I left.
With a smile after I was gone, Onyx started walking with a spring in her step across my Mindspace with her chains loosely following behind her. A few minutes later and she reached the other resident of the Mindspace apart from the origin. "Oh Zircon, why must our love hurt and feel so good at the same time~" The sword stayed particularly quiet considering she was a sword.
"Oh don\'t tell me your still upset just because you could not injure me during Our scuffle~ you are supposed to be a queen don\'t be so sulky~"
The sword indeed continued to be a sword only this time shook its body and the chains around it in protest to Onyx\'s statement. "You know we both wish the same thing? To protect our Apollo so we can enjoy the feeling of being by his side perpetually?
I may have messed up that task recently but I also found out something spectacular in the process~" The sword who was still a sword stopped shaking its chains as if curious about Onyx had to say. "We only need to follow Apollo as our king.
You used to be a queen so surely you must long for a king as much as I.~ I even have a plan of granting you a body once more, The only thing I need to know is will you follow Our dearest for all eternity?"
At that moment a large shadow Emerged from the sword and towered over Onyx. The shadow was covered in holes and appeared weak but Onyx could feel the determination the shadow was emanating before it returned into the sword unable to maintain that form for too long.
A smile emerged upon Onyx\'s face her mandibles opening too in excitement "Good, good. The two of us shall forever more shall be beside Apollo defending him from all things. The universe will burn before harm befalls him once more."
In the centre of My Mindspace my Origin had observed the whole interaction. If it had eyes it would be looking ahead and taking side glances at the crazy lady and the sword. But the Origin was also myself and It trusted them unconditionally and with everything that made it, it. So it just stayed quiet and decided to let the crazy lady be crazy as She had helped IT out many times.
As if knowing what it was thinking the crazy lady shouted "Thank you sweetie~" before talking to the sword once more causing the Origin to shiver slightly.
As I was drinking a beer and eating some sort of mystery ker\'min burger from the cold storage ingredients, I felt a shiver go down my spine like I was being greedily eyed up and down by an unknown party.
I shrugged my shoulders thinking it was the actual two parties in question sitting either side of me eyeing me up and down and continued to eat my meal in silence having a grand old time.