Chapter 504 I'll Kill You, And Then Kill Myself
Li Caiyi\'s abdomen started hurting like crazy, and she felt like fainting. However, Su Suyin\'s hateful gaze made her unable to look away.
"M-Mother?"
"All this time, your sister has been nothing but treating you sincerely, but is this how you repay her? Do you hate her so much you even tried to kill her?"
"No, that\'s not right! It wasn\'t me!"
"You were the only one with your sister at the time of the incident. You were also the one who brought that wine. Even though I repeatedly told Xiaohua not to drink, you gave it to her anyway! It was all your fault!"
"Mother, please..." Li Caiyi\'s voice cracked as tears began to well up. For Su Suyin, it didn\'t matter if she was the culprit or not. The fact that she allowed this to happen was already a sin.
"Poor Xiaohua. She already had so many things taken away from her. From YOU! Now you even want to rob the little life she had? How could you be so greedy and cruel?"
Li Caiyi couldn\'t say anything. Even now, her mother still blamed her for having better health than her sister.
She would let Li Chunhua choose the things she liked from the bunch first before giving the rest to Li Caiyi.
She would ask Li Caiyi to give her things to her sister because she was the older one and should be more understanding.
She would always hear her mother shower her sister with love and praise, while Li Caiyi had to be satisfied with the bit of attention she received.
All because she was born healthy and Li Chunhua wasn\'t. Because she was her older sister, it was inevitable for her to take care of her forever.
"What happened here?"
While Su Suyin was scolding her, Li Jirong and Li Junjie walked out of the room. Both were surprised to see her there, but none of them tried to help her.
"What are you doing here? Is it not enough that you dragged our family name in the mud and made your sister like this?" Li Jirong coldly asked.
"Father. I never hurt anyone. Xiaohua is my twin sister, who is very close to me. I would never do anything to harm her."
Li Caiyi glanced at Meng Renshu, but he only averted his eyes. As if she deserved to be poorly treated like this.
Looking at them from below like this, Li Caiyi understood where she stands now.
These people never genuinely cared for her. She only existed for Li Chunhua, and now that something had happened to the princess, the servant had to take the punishment for it.
Li Caiyi clenched her fist before she laughed. She was so sad and heartbroken, knowing everything she had done up until now only amounted to nothing.
She thought they would love her if she became the daughter they wanted her to be. But it was only her wishful thinking.
No matter how much she tried, they would never consider her as something more than Li Chunhua\'s plus one.
Li Caiyi felt so stupid for hanging to the vain hope. Added with Meng Yaoshu\'s betrayal, the last string that pieces her sanity together snapped just like that.
Why? Why was she the only one who had to go through this? What wrong did she ever commit?
"Haha...Hahahaha...."
The sheer absurdity made her let out a hollow laugh. Everyone looked at her like a lunatic, but she didn\'t care. Her tears felt hot, yet her voice sounded cold. It reverberated within the hallway.
"You. Why are you laughing?" Su Suyin couldn\'t help but ask.
Li Caiyi smiled crookedly. "You always told me to do everything I can for Xiaohua. I should be more understanding because I\'m older. I should be more considerate because Xiaohua is pitiful. I should be more grateful because I\'m healthier and lack nothing.
Why don\'t you just be honest with me for once that you wish I was the one who drank the poison? Because I\'m healthy and older, it\'d be better if it was me who was dying?"
"LI CAIYI! HAVE YOU DONE YET?!!" Li Jirong roared furiously while Su Suyin\'s whole body trembled like a leaf.
But Li Caiyi couldn\'t be stopped anymore. The pain inside her was so excruciating, and she wanted to tell them how much she was hurt inside.
Just once was okay; she wanted to be understood and not the one who had to understand.
"Mother, I might be physically fine, but I\'m also hurting from the false accusation. Even breathing feels hard. Am I not your child? Am I not allowed to be hurt? If you are going to treat me like this, then why did you give birth to me? It\'d be better if I was never born."
SLAP!
Li Caiyi was bounced on the floor. Her cheeks sting and burn from the impact of her mother\'s slap. However, it was nothing compared to the wound in her heart.
"How dare you...say that to me?" Su Suyin\'s voice shook terribly, holding back an enormous amount of fury inside her. "It\'s already bad that you have no intention to repent. Now you attacked me with such words? Insolent girl!"
"Aak!"
Su Suyin didn\'t care that their interaction was seen by the hospital staff who passed by. She grabbed a handful of her daughter\'s head and tugged it harshly.
"So you want to say that your life is more miserable than your sister\'s? You enjoyed a luxurious life while your sister suffered a lot of injustice because of you! You still can\'t be satisfied and want to play the victim here? If I can\'t teach you a lesson today, I\'ll kill you and kill myself after this!"
"It hurts! Mother, please stop!"
Everyone was so surprised they couldn\'t react immediately. However, Meng Renshu quickly snapped out of it and ordered his bodyguard to separate them.
"Haa...Haa..." The older woman panted hard. The bodyguards held each of them tightly so she could no longer move. She was drained after that outburst, but her sharp eyes never left Li Caiyi for once. "Ungrateful children like you are not my child. Perhaps your words held some truth to it. It was my fault for giving birth to someone like you. From now on, I will never let a wicked person like you hurt my \'only daughter\' again."
Pain. Pain. Pain.
It hurt. It hurt. It hurt so much.
Li Caiyi wanted to die then. Her whole world turned darker and darker. She didn\'t even remember why she was there in the first place.
Meng Renshu could tell both women were on the verge of collapsing, so he quickly dragged Li Caiyi out of there. Her skin was as cold as a corpse, and her eyes were empty and unfocused. She didn\'t resist or say anything, even when he forced her to enter the car.
"Go home and cool your head. Remember not to behave recklessly next time. I will not tolerate your unreasonable actions from now on!" He spat those words before slamming the door impatiently.
If she didn\'t retract her hand, it would probably be crushed by the door. After making sure to order the driver to watch her until she entered the house, Meng Renshu left hastily without turning back.
Was he anxious about being apart from Li Chunhua even for a moment?
How stupid of her. She foolishly still believed that someone would listen to her if she begged. She overestimated her value and even had the gall to talk back.
Now her last chance was ruined, and she couldn\'t even check on Li Chunhua\'s condition.
Inside the moving car, her tears flowed down without a sound.
She felt so weak after everything that happened today. Her abdomen ached so much, with her whole body feeling hot and cold simultaneously.
As miserable as she was, no one was willing to stand by her side.
"I want to disappear," she whispered weakly.