BXBX NOVEL Chapter 896 - Both Are Hurting (1)
Jasper and Ellie headed to the event venue in his car.
He was driving and she was checking latest fashion-buzz on her phone.
Ellie was so elated about the flood of amazing responses from audience and critics that she totally missed Jasper\'s dark mood.
Ellie\'s assistants already posted photos of latest designs from the show on their social media page, and her EY brand is on fire! Ah, there is nothing better than that.
Ellie didn\'t notice that they reached underground parking of the event.
Jasper\'s demanding kiss robbed her off her breath without any warning. She dropped her phone on the floor and held onto his shoulders.
Gap between the minidress and above-knee leather boots exposed her skin just enough for his palm to fit.
Jasper kissed Ellie relentlessly while his hand moved higher on the inside of her thigh. Her whole body trembled when she felt tips of his fingers brush against her panties. Once, twice…
A gasp escaped her when he moved her panties on the side, and she felt his fingers glide between her wet folds.
Ellie forgot that they are inside an underground parking lot. She didn\'t care that they are making out in a car like horny teenagers. She wanted him more, deeper… ah, how good he can make her feel.
And just when she thought that he will slide his fingers inside her, he stopped. Ellie was still in a daze when she realized that Jasper is facing forward, his head is resting on the steering wheel, cushioned by his wrists.
"What…?", she reached for his shoulder, but he jerked away as soon as he felt her touch.
"Do you like that?", he growled.
Ellie was coming out of her stupor and trying to comprehend what happened. "Like, what?"
"When someone plays with you?"
She was completely confused. "I don\'t understand."
"Me neither. I don\'t understand why you lied to me."
Ellie was jerked awake by his words. \'Lie\', what is that about? Did he find out something? "What do you mean?"
He turned his head slightly so that he can see her. "Did you ever think of telling me that you are behind EY? Or is making a fool out of me so much fun that you would keep on doing it forever?"
"How did you…?"
Jasper lifted his head suddenly, making Ellie stop talking when she saw his furious expression.
"Ellie, I told you things. And what did you do? Did you get a good laugh every time I mentioned your boss who does not exist? Do you enjoy toying with me?", he was trembling from anger.
"Jasper, I…"
"Shit! Ellie! You are the one who said: NO LIES!" Jasper rubbed his face with hands forcefully for few seconds before stopping abruptly. He took a deep breath and looked down at his feet. "Do you want to step out here, or do you want me to drop you off at your villa?"
Ellie\'s breath hitched when she realized that Jasper has no intention of going with her to the event. He is really angry. "Jasper, please…"
"No, Ellie!", Jasper cut her off furiously. "I can\'t speak rationally. I need time to cool off."
Ellie felt irritation bubbling inside her. Why is he the one who gets to say and do what he wants, and not letting her finish a single sentence? "No! Are you going to leave without giving me a chance to explain? Let me say what I have, and then you can storm off if you want!"
Jasper remembered that when Lily made a scene in his office, Ellie gave him a chance to explain. "OK."
"Can we move to the back? People are watching.", Ellie pointed at a group of people who walked in front of the car while gazing at two of them curiously.
The parking lot is not very well lit up, but with them sitting in front, people can see them.
They moved to the backseat and the automatic light in the car went off after few seconds, leaving them in the dark.
"I am sorry." Ellie started. "It was not my intention to lie about me being EY. I remember how at the wedding you assumed I have a boss, and I thought that it was funny, so I didn\'t correct you. And before I knew it, it was getting out of control… and that funny was replaced with panic. How can I tell you without sounding like a horrible person who is deceiving you?"
Ellie reached in the dark and felt his hand. She was relieved that he allowed her to hold onto it.
"Just saying \'I don\'t have a boss\' would do it.", he said in a flat voice devoid of any warmth.
"I know. And I tried more than once. Yesterday after work, every time I mentioned my boss you told me that you don\'t want to talk about work outside work hours. And you were in a bad mood, so I thought that I should not add to it… and that I will tell you next time."
Jasper remembered that she mentioned her boss and he stopped her from talking. So maybe she did want to tell him the truth earlier, but he was the one who didn\'t listen.
By now, Ellie\'s eyes got used to the dark and she could see Jasper\'s outline. His eyes gave a small sparkle how they reflected the faint garage light which is in front of the car.
"Say something.", she pleaded.
It took Jasper awhile to calm his emotions and speak. "I\'m sorry… for what I did. It\'s… I\'m hurt. The thought that a woman who owns my heart is toying with it… it hurt. And I wanted to hurt you back. I was not aware how insecure I am. This is new for me. For the first time in my life I feel that I am in a presence of a woman who can hurt me."
Ellie can\'t deny that she was hurt how Jasper treated her. And she is aware that both of them are hurting. "I am glad that you realize your actions were childish. I would never hurt you, at least not on purpose no matter how angry I am. I know that these are just words, but I want you to give me a chance to prove myself. I hope that you don\'t see me as your weakness."
Jasper sighed and squeezed her hand gently. "I don\'t see you as my weakness. But I am weak in your presence. I know that you are strong and independent and that without me around you will be just fine. And that makes me feel vulnerable."
"I will not deny that I am strong and independent. But it\'s not true that I will be fine without you around." Ellie took a deep breath while saying to herself that it\'s now or never. She needs to say something! "I\'m used to doing things by myself without the need to explain anything to anyone. I don\'t want to lie to you… but… there are other things that I\'m not telling you. And I promise that I will tell you everything as soon as I find a way to say it. I hope that you can be patient until I figure out how to tell you about it, and also, if it happens that you find out before I tell you, give me a chance to explain. I hope that soon you trust me enough to believe that I don\'t have any intentions of hurting you. I…" Ellie paused when she felt that her words are getting choked.
She pulled her hand out of his grasp. "That is all I wanted to say. You don\'t need to drop me off at the villa. I will manage."
Ellie reached for the door handle and opened the car door.
"Where are you going?", Jasper asked with panic in his voice.
"You gave me two choices. To drop me off here or at the villa. I said what I had to say. Thank you for listening. You can take your time to cool off. Goodnight, Jasper."
Ellie walked out swiftly, not giving Jasper time to react. And without turning back. Because if she turned back he would see the tears trickling down her cheeks.
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