BXBX NOVEL Chapter 87 Committing Suicide Or Not
"Agh!!!" A pain-filled groan escaped from my mouth as my head felt like pulsating because of the ache.
A sense of deja vu came to me as I remembered my transmigration into this world, waking up in an unfamiliar room in the middle of the night with a terrible twinge in my head.
My headache and the darkness around me made this feeling more prominent. I even thought that I was in a dream but this thought didn\'t last long. Because the agony I was experiencing was real enough to remind me, I wasn\'t dreaming and was very much awake.
I rubbed my eyes and opened them again to only see darkness around me. I didn\'t know where I was or what time it was now, all I knew was that I was in darkness while experiencing torturous pain in my head.
I decided to get up and find some clues about my whereabouts, but something pressed the middle of my forehead pushing me to the ground. Or I thought like this as I felt something soft and warm under my head.
\'Wasn\'t I laying on the ground?\' I thought but understood that I just didn\'t notice the thing I was laying on because of the pain.
"Who are you? Where am I? Are my eyes working properly?" I asked out without even knowing the thing who had pushed me to the ground. I didn\'t know if it was a human, elf, or some other mana race. All I did know was that it wasn\'t trying to harm me right now. So I thought that I could receive some answers from them.
"I am Aria, your maid, master. And I don\'t know where we are and why it is too dark to see it." Aria\'s monotonous voice came to me and I nodded slightly.
"So, why are you here? Wasn\'t I the only one to crash into the teleportation gate?" I asked again without acting like a cold teenager. There was no need for me to pretend to be like that to distract myself from my eternal boredom while the pain was doing the job for me.
"I jumped into the teleportation gate, master."
After Aria said this, I felt some movements around my head. For some reason she was caressing my hair.
Well, I didn\'t care about her touch. So I continued my interrogation of Aria without pushing her hand.
"Do you know how long I slept? And do you have any idea of where we are and will the sun set again like always here?"
I knew that we were in a very dangerous place because my intuition was giving me constant alerts like a broken AI. And this caused me more pain than I decided to endure.
\'I will decide if I will live it or not in the morning. if this alerts continues then committing suicide is better.\' I thought while waiting for Aria\'s answer.
"I don\'t know the exact time you slept, master but it should be 2 hours more or less."
"I see." I nodded again, then added:
"Try to sniff the air and touch around you. Describe to me the prominent characteristics of these things."
Aria shifted from her place for a little bit while still holding my head on her thighs without leaving physical contact for a second.
After that, I heard her deep sniffs and rubbing sounds on the ground and my side. It was a very deep sound as if the dirt in the grounds didn\'t see the proper amount of water for years.
"The air burns my nose, making it hard to breathe deeply and the ground is dry and hotter than human warmth. There is something tough on my side that I assumed to be a tree but it is too crunchy and wet. But it didn\'t feel like water, it was more viscous than water, maybe more than honey."
This description felt familiar, probably I read it somewhere in the novel. But it was hard for me to remember it as I didn\'t even read the novel seriously.
I just read it to pass some time and finished after months of reading. I stopped reading the novel so many times because Hywel was a boring character but the novel\'s writing was superb. So I still continued to read with many breaks.
All I remembered was that this place was a forbidden zone but I didn\'t know which forbidden zone I was in, as there were 2 forbidden zones.
But this didn\'t matter as forbidden zones are called forbidden zones because getting out from here is practically impossible for a 5th circle mage and fighter.
pαпdα`noνɐ1`сoМ There were many different and strong kinds of mana fiends in these dangerous places.
Such as mana titans, whose height is a minimum of 20 meters with intelligence comparable to humans but a more warped mind that likes to torture and play with other living creatures to satisfy their sadistic feelings.
The situation was too bad and I was sure that I didn\'t have any chance to live in this place.
And even if I had any chance to live through this place with some luck, I would probably still kill myself as it would be too boring to stay here for years and gather enough mana to escape this place.
But don\'t forget that I don\'t have any luck either, so it was still impossible.
\'Maybe I can feel some thrill of impossibility from living here?\'
I didn\'t have any feeling other than boredom or amusement after coming to this world, but feeling a thrill would work to distract me more than the measly amusement that I felt after teasing girls.
\'However, I will kill myself if I still feel this pain for more than 5 hours.\' I thought and closed my eyes.
"I will sleep, do what you want without making too much noise and movement."
After saying this, I boosted the speed of my blood flow and let my consciousness plunge into the dark corner of my mind.