BXBX NOVEL Chapter 89 Again?
Aria wrapped her arms around me and buried her face in my shoulder.
"I will do my best to lessen your pain. So, can you live with me for as long as you can?" She said with her usual monotonous voice but it was obvious that she was desperate to make me live.
She even used her wish that I granted to her. However, this didn\'t mean that I had to comply with her request.
The contract, which I wrote, stated that the wish of Aria needed to be a small one, but her wish was a big one.
She wanted me to live as long as I could with her, which was a pretty great wish that didn\'t suit a small request.
Thus I didn\'t need to realize this wish of Aria and could able to kill myself.
That is why I pushed Aria from myself and took the knife from her.
She was looking at me with tears in her blue droopy eyes that filled with hope but her hope was useless in front of me, who has no emotions and desires.
Living like a machine that tries to feel something to lessen the boredom it was feeling.
"You are too greedy, Aria." I said and thrust the knife into my heart.
But before the knife sliced my flesh and crushed my heart, I stopped. It\'s not that some kind of regret came to me momentarily and I stopped because of that feeling.
I stopped because of a strong force like being hit by a war hammer to the head.
I fell to the ground as my legs go weak and blood began to pour through my nose and eyes.
\'What do you mean that Aria\'s wish can be considered small?\' I thought to myself after I got stopped by my intuition again.
I didn\'t know what to think about this. my intuition stopped me from committing suicide. It warned me that Aria\'s wish could be considered as small and if I didn\'t realize her wish, then this meant that Goddes Esnera would break my soul because of the breach of contract.
And this would be the worst. I didn\'t know if there were reincarnation, heaven, hell, and something similar to these kinds of things.
But I was sure that a broken soul would be the worst-case scenario for me. Hence my intuition warned me with a strong force comparable to that I got hit by a war hammer to my head.
"It seems I have to live as much as I can with you, huh…" I muttered to Aria, who was kneeling beside me while checking my condition.
I grabbed Aria by her wrist and pulled her over me. Then I wrapped my hand around her and buried my face in her short black hair.
"Didn\'t you say that you will lessen my pain? So you can be my pillow as I am sure that the comfort caused by your body will make it easier to endure it." I whispered slowly and closed my eyes, listening to the harsh breathing and feeling the strong heartbeat of Aria.
But this didn\'t last long as Aria tried to get up and escape from my arms.
It was kind of unexpected that Aria wanted to leave my grasp after she harmed herself because of me. I thought that she would want to be spoiled more after that situation.
"Master, can you let go of me?" Aria said with a quiet voice.
"I can, but I won\'t. Don\'t you remember? I need you to endure this miserable pain that torments me." I said and squeezed her tightly, pressing her petite body to mine.
Aria\'s body heated because of my toxic, confession-like statement and I felt her reluctant movements of trying to separate herself from me.
Which made me understand that there was trouble greater than Aria\'s desire of hugging me.
"What happened?" I asked after releasing Aria.
She looked at me and took out a handkerchief from her pocket, wiping the blood that flowed from my nose and eyes.
Then she held the bloodied handkerchief in front of my eyes and said:
"Master\'s mana-rich blood can attract beasts and monsters alike. So it would be better to move from here and find a safe place."
I nodded my head as I forgot this basic thing and Aria remembered it.
Truly, she was my ideal secretary, maid, and friend. Though I couldn\'t think of her as these things other than my possession, which I didn\'t understand the reason for.
Was I a possessive person? And losing my emotions made this characteristic of mine more prominent?
I didn\'t know and didn\'t care about it. I just continued thought her as one of my best possession.
Anyway, after that, I decided to comply with Aria\'s idea as I needed to do my best to live to protect my soul from Goddes Esnera\'s wicked hands.
"Grab my hand and don\'t stray away from me," I said and extended my hand to Aria.
She grabbed my hand slowly with a shy movement and stood at my side, waiting for my instructions.
The forest was dark, which made it impossible to see 5 meters in front of me. And I thought that making light in this darkness would make this situation worse than right now, as it might attract more monsters than my mana-filled blood.
That is why I spread out my aura instead of mana and sensed my surroundings.
I slowly wandered between the bloody-looking trees while leading Aria.
But I abruptly stopped, because I felt a living being near me. I didn\'t know its shape, race, and gender. All I knew was that it wasn\'t too big or too small and it was physically weaker than me.
So I thought that I could hunt it and eat its flesh to secure our emergency food supply that we have in our storage artifact.
I leaned towards Aria and made a very quiet, almost unhearable \'Shhh\' voice.
She understood me as she held her breath and leave my hand.